Wednesday, April 20, 2016

"You doubt your value; don't run from who you are."

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Doubts.

We all have them. They creep in from the darkest corners of our mind, lending a quiet, persistent voice that seems to drown out all other thoughts.

You're not smart enough. You're not pretty enough. You have no purpose.

When those doubts assail your mind, it's easy to succumb to them. Try as you might, you just can't shake the feeling that you're not enough. That God can't possibly love you, as useless as you tell yourself you are.

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I've been experiencing these doubts recently. Just last week, I was probably the most discouraged and downtrodden I've been this year. I kept thinking, "I'm so useless. How could You even use me?"

I would look in the mirror and just see my faults. A dirty, tear-streaked reflection. All my imperfections and blemishes were magnified, almost as if I were viewing myself through a telescope.

But you know what? That's not what God sees.

When God looks at me, He sees beauty. Love. Joy. Purpose.

To Him, I am not worthless. In fact, He calls me His treasure. His dirty, broken, hurting treasure who's been washed clean by the blood of a perfect Savior.

Too often I look at myself through the world's mirror and not through God's. I get distracted by the world's ideas and expectations. Taking my eyes off of Him, I loose sight of not only His plan but also my value.

Our value isn't found in makeup. It's not found in our grades. It's not even found in our loved ones.

Our value is found in Jesus.
 
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Because I'm a child of God, I have been stamped with the seal of God's eternal love. He cares about me. And that means everything.

So who cares what other people think? I may not be a supermodel, a genius, or a star athlete.

But I'm a child of God.

And that's enough.


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My apologies for not posting at all last week. Life has been insane, and I honestly just wasn't feeling up to posting on Thursday. I was feeling really bummed out on Wednesday and Thursday--so bummed out that I felt physically exhausted. I know I'm usually a very emotional person, but this was just crazy. I think I needed to write this post, to let out a little bit of that doubt still lurking in the back of my head. This is a deeply personal post. To be perfectly honest, it was a little difficult to share. But I felt like God placed this on my heart and wanted me to share it with you all.
 
 
"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand."
{Psalm 139:14, 17-18}
 
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Never forget that you are beautiful. You are valued. You are loved.


31 comments:

  1. Amen, sister. I know just how you feel - I get so overwhelmed sometimes with life that I feel I just can't cope. It's exhausting. Thank you for sharing this post with us :)

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    1. Life can be so overwhelming and confusing at times. Thank goodness our Savior helps us through each and every valley! So glad this post was an encouragement to you!

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  2. YES For the longest time, I found my worth in my schoolwork. I am the youngest in my family, and I have always felt the need to prove myself. School was my way of saying "I'm smart, too! I can accomplish things that are worthwhile." It's hard to take my eyes off of what I think makes me worthy of God's love, and what really does. I needed to realize that nothing we can do will make us worthy, but He loves us anyway. He loves us exactly where we are at, no matter how ugly or unlovable we feel. Thanks for posting this! This is such a good reminder. :)

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    1. SAME, GIRL, SAME. I'm the youngest, too, (which just proves that the babies of the family are the bestest XD) and often feel that need to live up to my older siblings' accomplishments. And school is definitely one of those stressful areas of my life in which I search for my worth. But that is TOTALLY not what God wants us to do. I'm so grateful for His steadfast, unchanging love. <3 Glad I could impart to you any measure of comfort!

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  3. Oh, sweet Mary! *huggles* It breaks my heart to hear you've been struggling with this. Doubt it the worst, but something I think we all have such a hard time with. I know I do. I'm constantly beating myself up--I'm ugly, I'm dumb, I'm just a worthless potato. But God picks me back up, again and again, and reminds me HE loves me. HE has a use for me. I'm worthy to HIM. Wow. The Creator of the universe actually WANTS me. It blows my mind every time!

    And you, sweet girl, are such a sunshine in this dark world. You spread light and happiness everywhere you go. You make my day with every comment and blog post. I've smiled so, so many times because of you. This world desperately needs a good dose of Mary sunshine. It would be a much bleaker world without you. God loves you so much and WANTS you, and has wonderful, wonderful plans for you. So keep clinging to Him and spreading your sunshine. Because we need it!

    This post was beautiful and a wonderful reminder. Keep being your amazing self. <3

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    1. Oh my gosh, Lauri, you just made me cry. You are the sweetest. <333
      Ack, I know just how you feel. It's so easy to fall into that trap of thinking we're worthless potatoes--that God couldn't possibly love us. But it's so. wrong. God DOES love us and He DOES have a plan for us. And it is a beautiful, mind-blowing plan.

      I CAN'T EVEN HANDLE THE SWEETNESS. PLEASE HELP ME, I AM CRYING. Honestly, YOU have brought so much happiness to MY life. Girl, what would I ever do without you? <333

      Awww, so glad to have helped. Thank you so much. <3

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  4. Thank you so much for sharing this Mary!!

    I totally understand what you mean. I feel this often to, and I get you. I'm a highly emotional creature to, don't you know. :) The problem with me is that often I'm way to good at hiding my emotions....

    Thank you so much for sharing this, especially about such a personal subject. You are amazing, and I must admit I always look forward to your comments on my posts... They are always so delightful to read. :) You're amazing girl! :)

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    1. You're so welcome, dear girl!

      Eeep, yes! I am super emotional but often keep all my emotions bottled up inside me. Opening up like this was a bit of a challenge.

      Awww, all your sweet words! I definitely look forward to reading all your wonderful posts. YOU'RE amazing! <3

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  5. Oh, and your header.... GAHHHH IT"S SO PERFECT AND SWEET!!

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  6. Beautiful post, Mary! It was a wonderful reminder of how immeasurable God's love for us really is :).

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    1. (also, I just have to say, you stated that you might not be a genius. I disagree. This post obviously proves that to be untrue. *nods*)

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    2. Thank you so much, Savannah! God's love truly is immeasurable--love that description!

      (GOSH, HOW ARE YOU SO NICE??? I'm seriously grinning so big right now. But I'm really not a genius. XD)

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  7. I'm so glad you shared what's on your heart right now, sweet girl. I've been there too, more often in the last two years or so than I'm used to. I too have doubted my worth, my ability...hearing whispers that say, "You're not enough." But when I go back to who I am and WHOSEVER I am, those doubts have to shut up. Because who am I to argue with the God of the universe? If He says He loves me and that I'm worth loving, then by golly, that's the final word on the matter.

    I was astonished last year to discover that I've been measuring my worth by my performance. And that's such a dibilitating way to live. God and I are working on that one. :)

    Know that you're precious, Mary. Other commenters have mentioned it already, but you really do spread sunshine wherever you go. Your enthusiasm and open friendliness make so many people feel special. You matter. You're loved. You're God's Beloved... He looks at you with a smile and says, "She's Mine."

    P.S. A couple songs are coming to mind. Hawk Nelson's "Made," and Anthem Lights' "Closer Than the Angels." <3

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    1. That's supposed to be a big capital 'whose,' not 'whosever.' :P

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    2. That's such a great way of thinking of it. We really are arguing with God when we tell ourselves we're not enough. I'm so sorry you've been struggling with the same thing! It's far too easy to listen to the whispers of doubt and insecurity. But it's so, so wonderful to know that we are God's treasures.

      You'd think that wouldn't be an issue, but it really is. I find myself doing the same thing far too often. Thank goodness God keeps us in line. :)

      STOP MAKING ME CRY. You guys are wrecking my emotions. XD But really, you are the sweetest encouragement to me. I can always count on you to lift my spirits and bring a smile to my face. Just...thank you for being the beautiful, darling Tracey Dyck <333

      P.S. Totally got to look those up! I was thinking of "He Knows My Name" by Francesca Battistelli. :)

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  8. I've had a lot of doubts lately too. I had a really bad week last week, and I've gotten so down it's been hard to hang in there. Thank you for this encouragement.

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    1. Aww, I'm so sorry to hear that. :( It's so discouraging when doubts are insistent, unrelenting things. I'm glad that you could be encouraged by my words! Please never hesitate to reach out to me if you need an internet hug. *hugs*

      P.S. Thank you so much for following my blog on Bloglovin'! :D

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  9. Wow, Mary. This is... This is just awesome and what I needed to hear. I have so many doubts sometimes -- mostly about the future, because teens are expected to know what they want to do. And I have NO IDEA what I'm going to do when I'm older. But God has a plan. I need to keep being reminded of that. Thank you so much for this, Mary! <3

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    1. I'm so thrilled that this uplifted you. ^_^ YES THERE IS SO MUCH PRESSURE ON TEENAGERS. They expect teens to know what they want to do with, like, their ENTIRE LIFE by the time they graduate high school. SO STRESSFUL. But it really doesn't have to be, as long as we learn to let God have His way with our life.

      You're so very welcome, dearie. <333

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  10. Very encouraging to hear that other people go through this. Thanks for sharing! You've got this, girlie! <3

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    1. Awww, thank you, sweet girl! You never fail to bring a smile to my face :)

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  11. Mary, I needed this post. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts on this subject; you are absolutely right! <3

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    1. Oh, I'm so thrilled that I could help! I felt like I needed to post this, and based on the overwhelming response I'm receiving, it appears that I did. Thank YOU for commenting!

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  12. Thanks so much for this, Mary <3 I really appreciate this, as it's something I've been struggling with lately, too. I was feeling sorry for myself, and thinking that no one could ever love me "that way" (if you know what I mean) because I have a birthmark, or for other reasons. And it's really stinking hard to feel that way, BUT. We don't have to. We are already completely and totally loved, fulfilled, and WANTED in Jesus. He already loves us in every way imaginable!

    Thanks so much for your honesty in sharing this; I know I really related to it, and I know others did, too. As the other commenters are saying, you make my life a lot brighter, and I mean that! (Wow, that sounded soooooo cheesy, but it's true.) You're such a doll and I WUVS YOU.

    Wonderful, wonderful post!!! <3 <3 <3

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    1. I'm so sorry to hear you've been struggling with this, dearie. D: It seems almost everyone who commented has experienced this at one time or another. And you're so right. We don't HAVE to feel that way. Because Someone--the only Person whose opinion really matters--loves us more than we can fathom. And that's what matters most.

      Awww, you sweet, sweet girl you! I'm seriously tearing up because you guys are some of the most encouraging people I know. *HUGS* I WUVS YOU TOO, DEARIE. <3

      Thank you! I'm so glad it was an encouragement. <333

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